phat phred

failure to communicate

2009-07-26T18:21:00.000+02:00

must write more. here.

to tired...

harry potter

poop.

falling from self

2009-06-20T23:57:00.004+02:00

"there is a great phobia about the mind..."

creeping in to craziness with some TMK!

last night was hectic. this night was all chill and driving. still have to pick my mom up later. so main mission is to stay awake!

i am now going to keep on searching for new ways to channel my thoughts.

true hallucinations

3am product

2009-06-15T07:19:00.006+02:00

this is a short story i woke up with at three am this morning. i felt it deserved to be written and i publish it for critique.

We were twins
Fred Olsson
2009

We were brought out to the cold a perfect match. We kept each other warm all those childhood nights full of darkness and terrifying dreams. We had our differences, but we understood one another, that is what I thought. But I see now it was all comforting words without the honesty they portrayed.

“Reoh, you can’t cross this bridge alone.” I heard his statement ringing in my ears. My two minutes older brother Larry had the same calculating voice as always. But I could hear the emptiness in it. It wasn’t that the words lacked thought, because he was right in his statement. It was more the lack of understanding that this could not be understood. It was an answer to my request for some quality time on my own. My wish for a calm, uncalculated life. But as always he needed to be by my side, hanging over my shoulder, judging my creations.

We moved from the small town where we were born, seeking redemption in the big city. Correction; I sought redemption and Larry was looking for a job. And a job he found, he dragged us both down in it. Telemarketing, the devils disguise. I sold nothing, my lack of interest in both money and the product we were selling blocked my will to even try. Larry didn’t do any better. He gave it a few tries but after two weeks we decided this was a dead end. The fact that Larry found as little satisfaction in the work as I did filled me with hope, maybe we weren’t so different after all?

We walked aimlessly through moments of desperation and happiness. I felt on top of the world, gliding through existence with only my visions of the future to guide me. But I could feel how it was slowly consuming Larry. He was in a state of numbness the last month we spent in the city, and I wondered what this meant.
“Great news Reoh, we got a new job!” His beaming smile once again blocked my true vision and we moved back to our home town, where the job he talked about was waiting. Stationed at a great mill, we were chopping down life and selling it by the meter. Larry who felt like he was contributing was ecstatic, with money on his pocket and a new vision of the future he soared through space without a care in the world. I had made up my mind, this was the last time he would flourish.

“I know what you’ve been thinking..” He said with calm in his voice. I looked up at him and met his eyes. I knew what was about to take place, and so did he. He wasn’t sad about it, in fact he looked quite pleased. He smiled and continued “So you’ve made up your mind?”

“I have…” I replied with a faint smile. A tear forming at the corner of my eye, growing and finally succumbing to gravity it left a trail on my cheek in which the feelings could pour out. Larry raised an empty glass and called for a toast. “To sanity!” He boasted. I laughed and picked up the gun. And as he downed the empty glass I raised my left hand and blew him away.

the things i will leave behind.

2009-06-11T20:42:00.003+02:00

i am currently blinded by society. a misfit. i am in need of my own place, a place of sanity. where i can relax. where there is no authority. and no corruption. create it for me will you?

finally he awakens, the guschtodian. i wonder what that sneaky family is up to? lurking about the boathouse.

and where is my beloved summer? i can appriciate the rain, and love it, but some change would be nice. a little sunshine and warm winds. that would cheer me up. and a hug, we all need a hug sometimes.

will humanity ever grow the fuck up?

1,2,3 black star shine eternally

there WILL be writing

2009-06-08T10:12:00.002+02:00

up n' twisting to the pulp fiction soundtrack. fabulous.

so whats up? not much really, waiting for the sun. and while i'm doing that i'm working on some writing. nothing too great yet though. spent the weekend at my dads. half past drunk.

someone got some tips on great living philosofers?

Every man is evil yes an every man is a liar
An unashamed with the wicked tongues sing
In the black soul choir

hokus pokus förfan

2009-06-05T17:41:00.002+02:00

weeeeeell.

the total lack of interesting people. where are you?

it's the same old train of robots, with the same fucking goals. grow a pair and think for your self.

i just can't care about it all

we made you, bitch

2009-05-19T05:18:00.001+02:00

yeah, i wanna nail her

hmpf, alrite. one more.

2009-04-25T13:15:00.000+02:00

beat it

end it.

2009-04-22T18:48:00.004+02:00

this is will probably be the last post here. and that's all it will say.

dead

pulled my trigger now he's dead

2009-04-22T15:06:00.000+02:00

gief loan plx

TMNT

2009-04-19T19:50:00.000+02:00

collaborate and listen!

tell me can you see that any where, everyone treated equal?

2009-04-17T12:09:00.000+02:00

and this is why
so many die
leaving so many to cry

pure art

2009-04-15T09:43:00.000+02:00

macho macho man

i'm blind to you

2009-04-09T20:16:00.004+02:00

i'm gonna hijack your identity and live your life.. at least it will be spent.

cruising the interwebz for some sweet movies. if nothing truly exciting is about to happen i'll probably call it a night soon.

now, intrigue me.

staying on top of my reggae music, mon.

Gief some thought please.

2009-04-01T19:35:00.004+02:00

http://www.thevenusproject.com/

http://thepiratebay.org/torrent/4494188/Zeitgeist.2.Addendum.SWESUB.DVDRip.XviD-aNdY.avi

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/apr/01/g20-summit-protests

you think I'm alone when everyone's around

2009-03-17T16:25:00.001+01:00

fantastic weekend! life is back, and I'm spending it with the best bunch possible. due to laptop fails and laziness no time has been spent here in a while. but I'm back.

weird stuff is happening all around, and inside. I'm currently in the midst of puzzling these feelings together. in an attempt to once again make sense of it all. I have to wash my mind now. I'll bring something forth with magic later on.

it seems that you don't know me no more.

LIVE PEEPSHOW!!!!XXX!X

2009-01-28T18:54:00.017+01:00

ah, home again. the Brussels trip was fantastic. i left with no expectations at all and was very pleasantly surprised! landed at about 7pm and made my way to the north station where my hotel was located. but due to lack of maps and directions given by a complete retard i spent 2 hours looking for the hotel. which was about 500 meters from the north station. had to call my brother for instructions on how to get there. he did a great job and i found the hotel within minutes.

fortunately the hotel was really good, and i wrapped up the first night with a little Futurama in my BIG bed and a minibar snack due to starvation.

the next morning i took a cab from my hotel to the hotel where the conference was being held. there was about 90 people invited, 3 from each EU country i think, and only 4 or so didn't show up. so it was a great turnout. i was the only swede there though.
they started out by welcoming everyone and introducing some faces. we got the chance to ask some journalists and fellow bloggers about tips and there were people from other medias there as well. first day was mainly about blogs and technical stuff, presenting the platf for the competition and the community. interesting stuff. and a great lunch!

when we were finished i went back to the hotel with my new found friends Matthias from Germany (but currently residing in the Netherlands) and Mats from the Netherlands. we freshened up a bit and headed for the restaurant were dinner was being held. great food! and at the dinner i met yet another new friend, Jakob from Germany. some interesting discussions were being held and you could tell that the intoxication level started to rise. after dinner we walked to a bar and downed a few beers. but since the day started pretty early i was tired and so was Jakob so we were back at the hotel at about 2am or so.

Matthias twittering away

on Tuesday morning you could really tell that people were kind of worn out since everyone was late for the European Parliament. this day was all about politics, and we got a chance to throw some questions at the politicians. i'm really bummed out about not getting the tour of the Parliament building though, but we did see some of it. and i met another swede there! Christofer Fjellner who is representing Moderaterna in the EP. really cool guy.

me and Jakob at the EP

well got to run now. busy, busy!

Simon says: "i'm on my way"

can't even pay attention..

2009-01-24T16:40:00.003+01:00

woo, excitement. tomorrow i leave for Brussels. will update you on that on Tuesday.

tonight, chill. will be spending this evening with Robin, Simon and Thang. hopefully Gustaf will join us as well, but haven't reached him yet. first i'll be my moms designated driver though.

and now i need to feed. laters!

i'm reinventing myself

if you don't like my fire, then don't come around

2009-01-14T12:06:00.002+01:00

whew, haven't been up this early since i got home. woke up at eight!

Burn After Reading might be the funniest movie of 2008. the acting, characters and storytelling is outstanding! some of the scenes had to be rewinded and slowmowed, pure fun.

i should be getting into politics right now, but all i can do is write on the book. "I think it's going to be pretty explosive." the title is "A Waste of Space". might not be that long though. heh.

i'm gonna burn one down

Guschto for president.

2009-01-11T19:53:00.002+01:00

nice! you have my vote. http://www.myspace.com/leapingboy

sundays are slow, so please, entertain me.

TV has gotten so bad that i don't even watch it anymore. the shows they put on are just cheap knockoffs of previous shows, or just crap. where's the creativity? i mean do people actually spend their precious time watching this horseshit? and when there finally is something on worth watching, they fuck it up with commercials. this needs to change or TV will die, i hope.

no more, no less.

waking life

2009-01-10T17:49:00.003+01:00

last night i met up with Simon and Emma at Thangs place. long time since i met Emma now and she's just as cool as ever. we had funzies. tonight, no plans yet. hopefully something will come up soon. listening to Boards of Canada, really refreshing music. makes me want to write. so perhaps i'll start this saturday evening by doing that, need to start putting this book together now.

i now have the tickets for my Brussels trip! excitement! will be fun meeting some new people. i just hope their not all politic junkies, since i'm not, and the competition is about european politics. i gotta start reading up a little. lazy.

i just read about a buy named Andre.. he ripped his own eye out and ate it. he also murdered his family. but that's not as original as ripping your eye out and eating it, that takes determination. just thought you would like to now there still is people out there trying new shit.

and now my mom gave me a mission. i gotta go pick up the lovely Cina, so i'm off. but i'll try to have some interesting discussions this evening that i can write about. as long as Guschto and i get together it shouldn't be a problem!

high or low, the tide is always gonna come in.

they did bad things to me

2009-01-07T13:56:00.003+01:00

woha. back from spain. i had a lovely time, terrific food and we lived in a damn castle! also i met some fantastic people there. was kind of sad to leave, but hopefully i meet them all at this years summer-party. and two weeks enough time down there.

now i'm looking for work or studies. something to keep me fed while i write the book, which hopefully won't be crap! probably won't feed me but it would be awesome with something finished.

i also drank mead for the first time. was kind of surprised as i thought it would be like beer. but it was more like wine. a sweet "after-dinner" kind of wine. i really liked it.

well, i have nothing more to say at the moment. i shall return.

i'm playing the game, the one that will take me to my end

converting vegetarians

2008-12-19T20:17:00.003+01:00

this is the time of the revolution.

too much slack now, got to pull it together. i just got invited to participate in a european blogging competition called TH!NK ABOUT IT. so i'm heading for brussels. very exited!

tomorrow me and the Guschto start to make our way to spain. first stop is stockholm at Guschtos brother. and on sunday we fly to spain. very exited yet again! :)
i am currently in the midst of packing and sorting shit out. pumping infected mushroom and mixing it up with some good ol' hendrix!

when the trip is over i'm gonna start to seriously look for a job, again. not too much hope though since my entire hometown just got laid off. but if you got something for me anywhere in the world i'm all ears. preferably something write-ish. and preferably in amsterdam, that's where i want to live. i really like the cozy and friendly feeling in holland.

and about this blog contest, if you got any nice topics on european politics you want my opinion on, please share them.

i probably wont post anything the coming two weeks since i'll be in spain. but it probably wont matter since you will be busy surviving christmas and toast in the new year!

i am a Frog Machine!

hump the system?

2008-12-06T17:40:00.003+01:00

hey little sister, don't shed no tears.

it's an awful situation for any empathic mind to be thrown into. but the weakest blame it all on the system, without any understanding of the system. or society. they alienate themselves from something we're all responsible for, and a part of. people refuse to see the big picture and take responsibility. it's easier to be blinded by the shit handed down for consumption. or media.
it's easier to blame it all on the politicians, instead of doing something about it.

but who am i to preach. i'm contributing nothing to neither mankind as an evolving species or the system we've created. i am just an observing leach. but hey, it's my life. so.. fuck it!

/end 'pointless-rant-of-randomness'

it's hard to be a prophet and still make a profit

2008-12-05T17:41:00.003+01:00

how you do that?

finally got the passport. so now i'm free to leave the country! nice. spain is gonna schprak the schprak. we're leaving on the 21st.

and due to robin being stubborn and "believing" in his ideas, i now have 2 books to write. i'm gonna start with robins suggestion. it actually sounded great when he told me idea so :)

this evening will probably be spent at gustafs. just gotta convince the mighty mother to lend me her car, which is not an easy task.

line up the prejudices, and execute them.

DKNY aint what makes you fly..

what the fuck are you talkin' about?

2008-11-23T09:12:00.003+01:00

you duckfuck dipshit!

spending the weekend at my dads. haven't had a snus since friday, been taking the edge off with cigarettes though. nasty habits. well well... woke up at 7:45am! now that must be a record for me, especially when it's sunday.
we're celebrating Tove's birthday today. 13years old! Grats!

hopefully i have something with a little sensible context(is that how you say it?) to post here soon, not now though.

oh and i have no more rights to nag on Nat for being a lazy blogger, i'm a master of slack myself it appears. :)

shut the fuck up Donny!

roophies

2008-11-18T13:23:00.002+01:00

due to my father liking the previous song i posted, i post one more.

and due to lack of motivation at the moment i'm not going to post anything big. might come something later.

love each other.

mankind in a mass psychosis

2008-11-17T13:35:00.000+01:00

back laters, bad mood today. i'm trying to give up nicotine. nasty habits.

take me for a walk.

oh sanity, where art thou?

2008-11-12T22:12:00.003+01:00

ah, now i have calmed down a little.

Gustaf managed to get me back on earth.

i'll give you my religion. an open heart and mind. "god" to me is the creativity of mankind and the universe. the share beauty of this reality is religion enough. i appreciate the mystery, not to have everything spat in my face. letting me create my own reality, my own religion and getting inspired and renewed by the people around me. to me creativity is life.

Terence Mckennas words should be heard by everyone. he gave us some very interesting views on life.

taking care of no business

2008-11-12T17:23:00.000+01:00

ahh! JOY!

i just had the BEST discussion EVER. some religious people truly are stupid. as soon as you show them the facts of their own religion in your own perspective, they call you insane and boring. this one actually told me i depressed her. how the fuck can you still call yourself a christian if what i say depress you? if you believe something you should at least know the facts of your own religion, and no matter what i have to say you should be able to have an answer based on that religion. if all you can say is "you depress me", "your crazy"and so on you should check yourself. because then you truly are a broken person. a scared idiot without the courage to think for yourself. to question and build your own belief.

i'm not saying all christians or all religious people are stupid. that is not how i see it. i have many friends of many religions. but they do stand by their religion, and have thought about it for themselves. and god is no santa clause for them, as it is for you. they don't need to say "now i know why people want to murder" just because i say something that makes them uncomfortable. they think about it, and give an honest answer. many many of the christians i have met haven't even read the whole bible. grats. even i have done that.

and apparently, because i question my existence. i do not live my life. apparently living life is working all day, buying shit i don't need and sleeping the rest of life away. fucking moron. grow up.

with a circus mind that's running wild

2008-11-12T02:50:00.000+01:00

incoming wall of text. this is an outbreak from tonight's hours of reading forums, youtube comments, listening to stand-up and pure randomness. i just got a little fed up tonight. hearing "important" people talk.

i love how EVERYONE knows EVERYTHING nowadays. you laugh at god and swallow the theories thrown at you by scientists. but what the fuck do you know? even IF we all crawled on a beach at some point, HOW does that make you any smarter? knowing that changes nothing... and scientists think that EVERYTHING sprung from NOTHING in a single moment, a.k.a big bang. if you can make that leap, how can you laugh at a theory that implies someone actually worked on it? but all that religion does is create differences, in my opinion.

and humans have a nice way of alienating themselves from the universe. thinking of the universe as a materialistic thing, instead of something living. as far as i'm concerned, the universe is a very creative being, or something very creative created it. because no one in their right mind would believe the universe is an accident. check yourself, damn it. even if there is an endless amount of universes, something creative must have "thought" of it.

people fail to see why people act and do what they do. people does not see the emptiness within themselves. we are far to busy following trends, watching horrible movies or listening to music with no soul. your personality is created by the moments you experience. of course you have choice and such, but after that choice is made you can not decide what exactly is going to happen. when you are born you are empty, and the world you are thrown into is going to shape you. you can't blame people for differences they cannot control. people just are who they are. but if everyone would stop and take a few moments and truly think for themselves, see what they actually want, i bet you none would want to live in the "modern" society.

scientists with their math and fancy language love to laugh at religion and spiritual things, as if religion is something different then math and theories. religion is different ways of trying to understand the universe, very shitty ways yes, but so is science in some degree. i mean, they use math to try to imitate reality. and that is assuming that this is possible with something mankind, whom is a very young species in the universe, made up. this is as silly as any religion in my ears. sure we discover amazing things with science, but we are in NO WAY any "smarter" now than 2000 years ago. i mean, what impact does knowing the earth is round have on your life? yeah sure, you don't have to worry about falling over the edge. but no one fell over the edge when they belived it was flat either. all i am saying is don't fucking judge all the time. stop and think for yourself, take a plunge into NOT KNOWING ANYTHING.

Thank You.

i have to stop typing now, i'm getting nowhere. and the spelling thing does not work, so i hope it is at least understandable.

treat yourself with this: Vicar hospitalized with potato up his bum.
priceless, who the fuck thinks of pleasuring himself with a damn potato? hanging drapes.... suuuuuure. and the person who shoved a russian doll up the arse is pure genius.

i sure wish i had me a sandwich, or anything. i'm so broke i can't even pay attention. i'm so poor i can't even give you the time.

Fred

running, jumping, climbing trees

2008-11-11T14:11:00.000+01:00

ah! joy! got chased from bed due to the alarm going off this morning. at least we got some work done.

i spent the night at Gustaf's playing Mirrors Edge, now that was a great game. also tried some Dead Space witch looked nice, though no fall out 3.

took a look at a Wade Davis talk today, i had seen it some time ago but it's still as good as the first time.

interesting indeed.

well, now Gustaf is making dinner and laughing at silly stuff as usual and i wanna join in. so i might get back later tonight on some more subjects or tomorrow!

i'll leave you with a Terrence Mckenna quote.

"I thought about it, a few years actually, and I decided that meaning and language are two different things. And that what the alien voice in the psychedelic experience wants to reveal is the syntactical nature of reality. That the real secret of magic is that the world is made of words, and that if you know the words that the world is made of you can make of it whatever you wish."

why invent boredom?

2008-11-10T04:33:00.000+01:00

due to laziness and an uncooperative computer i did not post anything from my dads. i had loads o' fun though, went shopping a little. also had a great lasagna.

i watched Pans Labyrinth this weekend. expected a kids movie... very graphic violence. and beautifully told story. i liked it. but i liked Hogfather even more. i've never seen or read anything from Terry Pratchett earlier, so now i might have to plow my way through the discworld series.

my mom watched this TV show earlier were this girl payed a guy with oral sex for fixing her table. job well done sir!

me and Gustaf will soon release some music too, something to look forward too!

Autoschprak.

tinseltown to the boogiedown

2008-11-07T16:23:00.000+01:00

well, a new day.

getting ready for a visit to my dad. looking forward to it! i'll be there all weekend, nice with a little break from edsbyn.

i'm gonna have to get you all to give leaping boy a listen, awesomeness.

also, if you want awesomeness. Midnight Brown made a cover of this song and i was so happy when Gooze found the original on youtube. This is pure gold...

wish you were here in jail. kiss one more time, YEAH! gotta love japan.

something a bit more interesting might come up later tonight when i am intoxicated.

spurt!

popping the cherry

2008-11-07T04:39:00.000+01:00

welcome fellow earthlings!

my second attempt to blog, first one kinda died out... but that one was in swedish, so i thought why not try english for a lil' broader audience. first of all i feel obliged to warn you. see my grammar and spelling is horrible, but that's one of the reasons i try this out in english. to improve!

first post is made from my moms house, where i currently live. and it's 4:51AM here, so the creativity isn't at it's peak at the moment. but i'll try to say something useful.

it's been a nice day and evening at home. worked a little on a movie script for Niklas. i have named it "Underland" in swedish and it's really coming along nicely. better then i expected even. what it is about is still a secret though, and if you know the secret don't spoil it! after translating the whole thing into swedish and adding some stuff i took a walk with my brother. fuckin' snow! cold! rest of the evening was spent talking to Gooze and Natalie. two people that really inspire me.

and here's some old stuff in swedish that i put together in a moment of frustration, i'm too lazy to translate or write something new tonight.

"Vi har pengar, resurser och vetenskap nog att skapa ett paradis på jorden. Problemet är att vi låter de mest empatilösa och hjärntvättade leda oss. Av någon, för mig, helt obegriplig anledning är det som är viktigast i dagens samhälle överflöd. Ett överflöd varje människa skulle må bättre av att inte ha. För hur kan någon med gott samvete stå och se på hur andra människor lider p.g.a pengar? En skitig papperslapp vi satt ett symboliskt värde på... Nej, utan det här samhället
behöver vi inte 1000 nya lagar om året. Eller ett meningslöst jobb. Den mänskliga hjärnan har blivit ett operativsystem som politik och media kan styra bästfan de vill. Dags att vakna tycker jag! Men vad vet jag.."

and yes, i do realize this is nothing new, nor do i think my writings will make a big difference. and i am not saying that i am in any way better then the people going with the flow. and since i'm not blaming you for going to your jobs, making unnecessary products just to keep the money flowing, i expect the same treatment in return. meaning you won't look down on me for living life in a different way. i get depressed from doing, in my opinion, totally meaningless things, and it chokes me. therefore i pursue my dream of becoming a writer, since i see no other way of living my life.
i might be crap at writing, but i truly like it. so i don't really care if you consider it crap or not. i write for myself. selling books and making money of it is just a really nice bonus. but of course it is my dream to make a living of it and write full time. all i really hope to do is inspire. and to be inspired in return.

that will be all for tonight/morning. gots to get to bed. meeting tomorrow.

also, this blog will NOT be me spewing shit on society. but since i did not have anything new nor funny to write tonight i just threw in some old shit. and that was spewing on society.

nighteo!

(feel free to correct my english)