failure to communicate

must write more. here.

to tired...


harry potter



poop.

falling from self

"there is a great phobia about the mind..."

creeping in to craziness with some TMK!

last night was hectic. this night was all chill and driving. still have to pick my mom up later. so main mission is to stay awake!

i am now going to keep on searching for new ways to channel my thoughts.


true hallucinations

3am product

this is a short story i woke up with at three am this morning. i felt it deserved to be written and i publish it for critique.

We were twins
Fred Olsson
2009

We were brought out to the cold a perfect match. We kept each other warm all those childhood nights full of darkness and terrifying dreams. We had our differences, but we understood one another, that is what I thought. But I see now it was all comforting words without the honesty they portrayed.

“Reoh, you can’t cross this bridge alone.” I heard his statement ringing in my ears. My two minutes older brother Larry had the same calculating voice as always. But I could hear the emptiness in it. It wasn’t that the words lacked thought, because he was right in his statement. It was more the lack of understanding that this could not be understood. It was an answer to my request for some quality time on my own. My wish for a calm, uncalculated life. But as always he needed to be by my side, hanging over my shoulder, judging my creations.

We moved from the small town where we were born, seeking redemption in the big city. Correction; I sought redemption and Larry was looking for a job. And a job he found, he dragged us both down in it. Telemarketing, the devils disguise. I sold nothing, my lack of interest in both money and the product we were selling blocked my will to even try. Larry didn’t do any better. He gave it a few tries but after two weeks we decided this was a dead end. The fact that Larry found as little satisfaction in the work as I did filled me with hope, maybe we weren’t so different after all?

We walked aimlessly through moments of desperation and happiness. I felt on top of the world, gliding through existence with only my visions of the future to guide me. But I could feel how it was slowly consuming Larry. He was in a state of numbness the last month we spent in the city, and I wondered what this meant.
“Great news Reoh, we got a new job!” His beaming smile once again blocked my true vision and we moved back to our home town, where the job he talked about was waiting. Stationed at a great mill, we were chopping down life and selling it by the meter. Larry who felt like he was contributing was ecstatic, with money on his pocket and a new vision of the future he soared through space without a care in the world. I had made up my mind, this was the last time he would flourish.

“I know what you’ve been thinking..” He said with calm in his voice. I looked up at him and met his eyes. I knew what was about to take place, and so did he. He wasn’t sad about it, in fact he looked quite pleased. He smiled and continued “So you’ve made up your mind?”

“I have…” I replied with a faint smile. A tear forming at the corner of my eye, growing and finally succumbing to gravity it left a trail on my cheek in which the feelings could pour out. Larry raised an empty glass and called for a toast. “To sanity!” He boasted. I laughed and picked up the gun. And as he downed the empty glass I raised my left hand and blew him away.

the things i will leave behind.

i am currently blinded by society. a misfit. i am in need of my own place, a place of sanity. where i can relax. where there is no authority. and no corruption. create it for me will you?

finally he awakens, the guschtodian. i wonder what that sneaky family is up to? lurking about the boathouse.

and where is my beloved summer? i can appriciate the rain, and love it, but some change would be nice. a little sunshine and warm winds. that would cheer me up. and a hug, we all need a hug sometimes.


will humanity ever grow the fuck up?



1,2,3 black star shine eternally

there WILL be writing

up n' twisting to the pulp fiction soundtrack. fabulous.

so whats up? not much really, waiting for the sun. and while i'm doing that i'm working on some writing. nothing too great yet though. spent the weekend at my dads. half past drunk.

someone got some tips on great living philosofers?



Every man is evil yes an every man is a liar
An unashamed with the wicked tongues sing
In the black soul choir

hokus pokus förfan

weeeeeell.


the total lack of interesting people. where are you?

it's the same old train of robots, with the same fucking goals. grow a pair and think for your self.









i just can't care about it all

we made you, bitch

yeah, i wanna nail her

hmpf, alrite. one more.

beat it

end it.

this is will probably be the last post here. and that's all it will say.

































dead

pulled my trigger now he's dead

gief loan plx

TMNT

collaborate and listen!

tell me can you see that any where, everyone treated equal?

and this is why
so many die
leaving so many to cry

pure art

macho macho man

i'm blind to you

i'm gonna hijack your identity and live your life.. at least it will be spent.

cruising the interwebz for some sweet movies. if nothing truly exciting is about to happen i'll probably call it a night soon.

now, intrigue me.




staying on top of my reggae music, mon.

Gief some thought please.

http://www.thevenusproject.com/

http://thepiratebay.org/torrent/4494188/Zeitgeist.2.Addendum.SWESUB.DVDRip.XviD-aNdY.avi

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/apr/01/g20-summit-protests

you think I'm alone when everyone's around

fantastic weekend! life is back, and I'm spending it with the best bunch possible. due to laptop fails and laziness no time has been spent here in a while. but I'm back.

weird stuff is happening all around, and inside. I'm currently in the midst of puzzling these feelings together. in an attempt to once again make sense of it all. I have to wash my mind now. I'll bring something forth with magic later on.

it seems that you don't know me no more.

LIVE PEEPSHOW!!!!XXX!X

ah, home again. the Brussels trip was fantastic. i left with no expectations at all and was very pleasantly surprised! landed at about 7pm and made my way to the north station where my hotel was located. but due to lack of maps and directions given by a complete retard i spent 2 hours looking for the hotel. which was about 500 meters from the north station. had to call my brother for instructions on how to get there. he did a great job and i found the hotel within minutes.

fortunately the hotel was really good, and i wrapped up the first night with a little Futurama in my BIG bed and a minibar snack due to starvation.






the next morning i took a cab from my hotel to the hotel where the conference was being held. there was about 90 people invited, 3 from each EU country i think, and only 4 or so didn't show up. so it was a great turnout. i was the only swede there though.
they started out by welcoming everyone and introducing some faces. we got the chance to ask some journalists and fellow bloggers about tips and there were people from other medias there as well. first day was mainly about blogs and technical stuff, presenting the platf for the competition and the community. interesting stuff. and a great lunch!

when we were finished i went back to the hotel with my new found friends Matthias from Germany (but currently residing in the Netherlands) and Mats from the Netherlands. we freshened up a bit and headed for the restaurant were dinner was being held. great food! and at the dinner i met yet another new friend, Jakob from Germany. some interesting discussions were being held and you could tell that the intoxication level started to rise. after dinner we walked to a bar and downed a few beers. but since the day started pretty early i was tired and so was Jakob so we were back at the hotel at about 2am or so.

Matthias twittering away

on Tuesday morning you could really tell that people were kind of worn out since everyone was late for the European Parliament. this day was all about politics, and we got a chance to throw some questions at the politicians. i'm really bummed out about not getting the tour of the Parliament building though, but we did see some of it. and i met another swede there! Christofer Fjellner who is representing Moderaterna in the EP. really cool guy.

me and Jakob at the EP

well got to run now. busy, busy!


Simon says: "i'm on my way"

can't even pay attention..

woo, excitement. tomorrow i leave for Brussels. will update you on that on Tuesday.

tonight, chill. will be spending this evening with Robin, Simon and Thang. hopefully Gustaf will join us as well, but haven't reached him yet. first i'll be my moms designated driver though.

and now i need to feed. laters!


i'm reinventing myself

if you don't like my fire, then don't come around

whew, haven't been up this early since i got home. woke up at eight!

Burn After Reading might be the funniest movie of 2008. the acting, characters and storytelling is outstanding! some of the scenes had to be rewinded and slowmowed, pure fun.

i should be getting into politics right now, but all i can do is write on the book. "I think it's going to be pretty explosive." the title is "A Waste of Space". might not be that long though. heh.




i'm gonna burn one down

Guschto for president.

nice! you have my vote. http://www.myspace.com/leapingboy

sundays are slow, so please, entertain me.

TV has gotten so bad that i don't even watch it anymore. the shows they put on are just cheap knockoffs of previous shows, or just crap. where's the creativity? i mean do people actually spend their precious time watching this horseshit? and when there finally is something on worth watching, they fuck it up with commercials. this needs to change or TV will die, i hope.

no more, no less.

waking life

last night i met up with Simon and Emma at Thangs place. long time since i met Emma now and she's just as cool as ever. we had funzies. tonight, no plans yet. hopefully something will come up soon. listening to Boards of Canada, really refreshing music. makes me want to write. so perhaps i'll start this saturday evening by doing that, need to start putting this book together now.

i now have the tickets for my Brussels trip! excitement! will be fun meeting some new people. i just hope their not all politic junkies, since i'm not, and the competition is about european politics. i gotta start reading up a little. lazy.

i just read about a buy named Andre.. he ripped his own eye out and ate it. he also murdered his family. but that's not as original as ripping your eye out and eating it, that takes determination. just thought you would like to now there still is people out there trying new shit.

and now my mom gave me a mission. i gotta go pick up the lovely Cina, so i'm off. but i'll try to have some interesting discussions this evening that i can write about. as long as Guschto and i get together it shouldn't be a problem!


high or low, the tide is always gonna come in.

they did bad things to me

woha. back from spain. i had a lovely time, terrific food and we lived in a damn castle! also i met some fantastic people there. was kind of sad to leave, but hopefully i meet them all at this years summer-party. and two weeks enough time down there.

now i'm looking for work or studies. something to keep me fed while i write the book, which hopefully won't be crap! probably won't feed me but it would be awesome with something finished.

i also drank mead for the first time. was kind of surprised as i thought it would be like beer. but it was more like wine. a sweet "after-dinner" kind of wine. i really liked it.

well, i have nothing more to say at the moment. i shall return.

i'm playing the game, the one that will take me to my end